let's keep it real.. being far away from home is hard! and home isn't actually where i am right now.. home is for example, being over at karin's and taking weird picture on her lake, home is waiting for kristin to give me a call to let me know what time she is picking me up with her "car", home is sitting next to the fire place and having the longest conversation with mom, home is missing france, my family and my friends.. home is being away from home but still- it is home.. I MISS HOME! i'm just really lost since i'm back.. i'm sorry i'm not being the best friend ever over here, i'm sorry i'm never up to do anything, i'm sorry i can be mean and annoying.. i'm sorry i'm tired all the time, i'm sorry i tend to complain a little too often, i'm sorry i'm doing shit and killing myself more and more everyday.. i'm sorry i just don't get better! but please, i'm still who i used to be.. just going through a hard time.. i will laugh again.. i will.. I MISS HOME! let's keep crying..